I'm back...anyone care? :)

So...we have the adoption decree, a birth certificate with OUR last name on it, 2nd DNA authorization from the US Embassy..and supposedly the 2nd DNA test was taken last Wednesday. We get to pick up our little girl about 3 weeks from when the 2nd DNA arrives at the Lab which ...........................


should have happened Tuesday. It's not there yet. I suspect it's taking the Pony Express through Mexico. This adoption process is beyond frustrating. To add fuel to the fire CNN had a story about how people adopt from Guatemala because it's a quick process with no red tape.

EXCUSE ME? Um...yeah...I started this process ALMOST 2 years ago. This has NOT been easy or without stumbling blocks.

So...still out of PGN. Still have not been submitted to the US Embassy. That's supposed to happen today. Riiiiiiiiiiiiiight. Even if it happens next week we should have our little girl home by Halloween. I still can't believe it. I am sooooooooo excited!!!!

Kindergarten started last week. Whew. This whole school thing is something to get used to. My kindergartener LOVES it though.

We took the kids to the waterpark last Friday and they loved it. My in-laws came to stay with the baby so that was good. We noticed a bunch of animal hair in the bathtub and were wondering if they'd washed their dog. Nope. We figured the cats must've been in there, but it was ALL over. We cleaned it up and forgot about it...until I woke up at 4am and went to the bathroom and the two cats came running out of the bathtub. I peeked into the tube. Lo and behold there was a mouse...still alive. Apparently the cats like to put the mice in the tub after they catch them and play air hockey. Who knew?

WE ARE OUT OF PGN!!!!!!!!!

The Guatemalan government legally considers us Grace's parents. Today the agency is getting the final signoff from the birthmother, then they need to get her birth certificate reissued with our last name...get her a passport...submit us to the US Embassy...take another DNA test...and then schedule our final appointment.

I can't believe we're really going to have another daughter.

I keep waiting for the agency to call and say it was a mistake...and they didn't mean to call us. It's really another family who got out.

It's surreal.

Our daughter is going to be home by Christmas...and probably by Thanksgiving...and maybe even by Halloween.

Still haven't figured out how to title these damn things.

Nothing much exciting happening in our house. We spent a week at a cabin with my in-laws. My 5 year old is getting ready to start kindergarten. I'm not sure if he is having anxiety over it or what, but he has turned into a MONSTER lately. Seriously. The three year old isn't far behind.

I'm not a huge Dr. Phil fan, but I did watch my fair share during my last two pregnancies and combined (6 1/2) months of bedrest...and on one show he said "Nobody said being a parent is easy". Ain't that the truth. It's so easy to spoil the kids, and so much harder to make rules and stick to them...to let them know that their ARE consequences to their actions...and that the world does NOT revolve around them. I do take some measure of solace in the fact that even though I have to follow through on the threat to not take them to the movie if they don't behave, in the long run it's better for them. We went to the neighbors last night and the kids were standing on their couches...but did sit when we asked...BUT they also thanked the host for dinner with no prompting. It's times like that (the thanking not the couch standing.) that I think we're maybe doing an ok job.

No news on the Guatemala front yet. Supposedly we've been back in PGN for 3 1/2 weeks. I'm still not sure I believe it. We've spent about $30k on this adoption so far with no idea when we're going to bring our daughter home. It makes me absolutely sick to my stomach. Sometimes I don't think she's coming home...

PGN?

Supposedly we were resubmitted on Tuesday. I REALLY hope that is true. I've been filling out paperwork to extend our 1-600 application for immigration which essentially is what the US requires for our daughter to be allowed to come home.

Not much exciting happening in our lives. Our 3 month old is rolling over like crazy now. The 3 year old has been arguing with me abuot the fact that ghosts live in closets and wants to know why. I told him there are no such things as ghosts. He just says "you are lying mommy. Why do they live in closets" It's an argument I can't win.

We're heading to a cabin for the weekend with my husband's family. It's always interesting. The nice thing is that his two brothers and sister-in-law will be there along with his parents. Our kids will be the only kids...which means a TON of help. :)

Don't tell PETA but....

We went to the carnival a couple of weeks ago and the boys played the game where you shoot darts at balloons. They each got to pick out a toy. My 3 year old picked a toy car. The 5 year old picked a pair of handcuffs. Yep. You already can see a bad story happening, can't you?

He tried to coerce his younger brother into wearing the handcuffs, but that didn't work. Next thing I know...there are TWO screaming boys and a CAT running at top speed through the house. The 5 year old has one handcuff on and the end is dangling.....

Hmm...I started running looking for the cat. The whole time I was thinking "oh boy..how do I explain to him if he killed the cat?" Luckily, I found the cat in the basement sitting relatively (relatively) calmly with a handcuff around his neck. I saved the cat...and then we had a LONG talk about how it is never a good idea to put ANYTHING around ANYBODY's neck. We got the cat from my mom. I sent her an email saying "Please let me come home. Love, Jerry" Jerry is the cat.

Tit for tat though....we have some angel fish in the house. We used to have two very large ones, but we left the house one Thanksgiving and when we came home we found out that our then 2 year old had unplugged the tank. Unfortunately for the fish, they didn't fare so well. We've spent the last 18 months with frogs, snails and newts...and finally decided we were ready for some more angelfish. The first two seemed to be doing well...and then this weekend one died. Why, you ask? Apparently angel fish are very fragile fish and can't handle noise...OR A CAT BODY SLAMMING THE TANK 50 TIMES A DAY. Seriously. It's a zoo here.

Anxiety runs in my family. My mom and grandma are horrible. I seem to have inherited it as well. Unfortunately for me, it gets worse after I give birth and I seem to be doing that frequently.

I'll give you some examples:

1) My husband has a fever. I think...he has cancer and is dying.
2) My mom doesn't proof her emails so every now and then a sentence is goofy. I think she has dementia.
3) TMI here, but I have a little blood when I go to the bathroom. I think I have colon cancer. Nevermind the fact I had hemorroids so bad when I was pregnant, I bled every day.
4) My dad was dehydrated and almost blacked out. I think he is having a heart attack.

Seriously I know that NONE of these things is happening, but I worry CONSTANTLY.

I'm tempted to go to the doctor to see about anti anxiety medication, but I'm hoping once my hormones are back to normal, it will calm down.

What is wrong with me? I am SO happy with my life. I love my husband, parents, my children. It's like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like I don't believe I deserve to be this happy. Like something is going to go wrong.

Although, as I sit here typing, I can tell you my life isn't perfect. I do have one sleeping baby on my lap, but two screaming (and I do mean screaming) children in the bedroom. There's nothing like overtired children to help you relax at the end of the day. Calgon..........take me away.............